How does the author's personal philosophy on fate and free will evolve in Chapter 2, particularly regarding his journey to Shirdi?

In Chapter 2, the author's philosophy is shown to be in a state of conflict. After his friend's son dies, he adopts a fatalistic view, believing that every living being is governed by Karma and that destiny is irresistible. This leads him to question the purpose of seeking a Guru, thinking, "Whatever is written on the forehead will happen immediately. Then what is stuck without a Guru?" He decides not to go to Shirdi. However, he simultaneously acknowledges a paradoxical force, stating, "Nothing works against destiny; it dragged me to Shirdi." This suggests a belief that while individual actions might seem powerless against karma, a greater destiny was already at play, compelling him towards Shirdi despite his own logical reservations.