How does the author of the Sai Satcharitra describe his personal motivation and the challenge of writing about Sai Baba in Chapter 49?

In Chapter 49, the author, Hemadpant, expresses a profound internal conflict. He acknowledges that the Sadguru's glory is so unfathomable that silence is the most fitting praise. However, he confesses that every quality of Sai compels him to break that silence and write. He likens the bliss of Sai's stories to a sweet delicacy that must be shared with fellow listeners to double the joy. He humbly admits his own inadequacy, questioning how his speech can describe the inconceivable. Despite this, as he explains in Chapter 49, he feels an irresistible urge to write, ultimately concluding that it is Sai's own grace that provides the remembrance of the stories to complete the book.