How did the author's initial character traits contrast with the spiritual state Sai Baba required for writing his biography?

The author describes his initial self as mischievous, talkative, cynical, and critical. In Chapter 2, he admits to being arrogant about his knowledge, having a logic-driven mind, and being prone to argumentation, with no real understanding of a Satguru's greatness. This disposition is in stark contrast to Sai Baba's core requirement for the author, which was to completely dissolve his ego and surrender it at Baba's feet. Baba stated that only when the ego is gone could he, Sai, enter with 'I-ness' and write the story himself, making the author's transformation central to the narrative's creation.