How did the author's confessed 'adversarial' mindset of being critical and argumentative conflict with the teachings of Sai Baba presented in the text?

In Chapter 2, the author, who would be named Hemadpant, admits to being "mischievous, talkative, cynical, and critical," with a logic-driven mind prone to argumentation. This personality directly clashes with Sai Baba's teachings from the very same chapter. Baba explicitly warns against such a mindset, stating, "Where there is a mind for argumentation, there is abundance of ignorance and Maya." He further advises, "Do not establish your own side, do not refute the other side," calling it a "useless effort." Baba's path requires faith and surrender, whereas the author's initial state was one of intellectual pride and debate, which Baba identified as a significant barrier to self-knowledge and happiness.