How did the author describe his own personality and mindset before he fully understood the Satguru's greatness?

In Chapter 2, the author, who would later be known as Hemadpant, provides a very critical self-assessment of his former character. He describes himself as having been mischievous, talkative, cynical, and critical. He admits to being arrogant about his knowledge, possessing a bad intellect, and having a logic-driven mind that was always proud of its own wisdom and prone to argumentation. The text explicitly states that he "knew nothing of the Satguru's greatness" during this phase of his life, highlighting the significant transformation he underwent.