How did Amir Shakkar's feelings about staying in the Chavadi change over time, and what happened when he acted on those feelings?

Amir Shakkar's feelings about the Chavadi evolved during his nine-month stay. As described in Chapter 22, he was initially miserable due to his rheumatism and the terrible conditions. Upon accepting Baba's word, he found a way to stay there happily, sustained by his faith and the blessing of constant darshan. However, over time, the feeling of confinement grew, and the place began to feel like a prison to him. His mind desired freedom from this dependency. This shift in feeling led him to abandon his post and leave for Kopergaon without Baba's permission. The immediate consequence of this action was a disturbing miracle: he encountered a dying Fakir and, upon giving him water, the Fakir's body instantly became lifeless, a stark event following his disobedience.