Despite taking a three-month leave, why was Balasaheb Deo still unsuccessful in his goal to read the Dnyaneshwari?

Even though Balasaheb Deo took a three-month leave from his job and went to Shirdi and his home in Ponda to rest, he was still unable to fulfill his desire to read the Dnyaneshwari. The account in Chapter 41 clarifies that while he was able to accomplish other tasks and read other regular books during this time, the right moment for the Dnyaneshwari simply did not arrive. Whenever he picked it up, doubts would surface in his heart, causing the reading to remain superficial and preventing any true love for the text from arising. This demonstrates that the obstacle was not a lack of time but a deeper spiritual block.