Describe the specific struggle Balasaheb Deo experienced with his spiritual practice and the firm decision he made because of it.

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, similar to how one might read a chapter of the Bhagavad Gita. However, as detailed in Chapter 41, he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from maintaining this practice. Even when he tried to read other books, which he could do regularly, the Dnyaneshwari reading would not happen. He found that doubts would arise in his heart, the reading felt superficial, and he couldn't develop a genuine love for it. Frustrated by this recurring failure, even with a resolution to read just five verses daily, Deo made a firm resolve. He decided he would only begin reading the Dnyaneshwari again when Sai Baba himself gave him a direct and clear order to do so, trusting completely in Baba to resolve the issue.