Describe the emotional journey of the devotee Dev, from inviting Baba to learning the truth about the Udyapan feast.

Dev's emotional journey was a rollercoaster of faith and doubt. Initially, he felt blessed upon hearing Baba would attend his Udyapan. However, as described in Chapter 40, when the ceremony concluded without a recognized appearance from Baba, Dev felt deeply disappointed and deceived, leading him to write a letter of complaint. After Jog relayed Baba's explanation, Dev's feelings shifted dramatically to shame and remorse. The text states his eyes "overflowed with a surge of love," and he felt dejected, saying "Shame, shame! I blamed Sai in vain!" He recognized his own pride and delusion in failing to see Baba in the Sanyasi's guise.