Describe Balasaheb Deo's internal struggle with reading the Dnyaneshwari and the specific resolution he made because of it.

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, similar to how one might read a chapter of the Bhagavad Gita. However, as detailed in Chapter 41, he consistently faced obstacles. Whenever he picked up the Dnyaneshwari, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing a deep love for it. This was peculiar because he had no trouble reading other books regularly. His frustration grew to the point where even a resolution to read just five verses daily failed. In his distress, Deo made a firm resolve: he would not read the Dnyaneshwari again until Sai Baba Himself gave him a direct order and inspired the love for it within him. He placed his faith entirely at Sai's feet, deciding to wait for a clear command before starting.