Can you tell me about Balasaheb Deo's main spiritual problem described in this chapter?

Balasaheb Deo's primary spiritual struggle was his inability to read the Dnyaneshwari on a daily basis, despite having a great desire to do so. As detailed in Chapter 41, whenever he attempted to start this practice, some obstacle would invariably arise. Even when he took a three-month leave and went home to rest, he found himself reading other books regularly but could not fulfill his wish to read the Dnyaneshwari. The text mentions that when he did pick it up, doubts would surface in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing a true love for it. This continued failure caused him great distress, to the point where even a simplified resolution to read just five verses daily did not succeed.