Can you tell me about Balasaheb Deo's experience with trying to read the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo had a persistent and strong desire to read the Dnyaneshwari as part of his daily spiritual practice. However, as recounted in Chapter 41, he faced continuous obstacles that prevented this from happening. Even when he took a three-month leave from work and went to his home to rest, he found that he could read other books but not the Dnyaneshwari. Whenever he attempted to read it, doubts would surface in his heart, which made the reading feel superficial and prevented him from developing a true love for the text, causing his resolution to fail.