Can you detail the specific challenges and mental state of Balasaheb Deo regarding his inability to read the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo's challenges were quite specific and frustrating. According to Chapter 41, while he had no trouble reading other books regularly, a persistent obstacle would always arise when he attempted to read the Dnyaneshwari. This occurred despite his strong intention and even during a long leave from work. His mental state was one of distress because when he would take the holy book in hand, doubts would surface in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing love for it. This struggle was so profound that even a simplified resolution to read a mere five verses, or Ovis, daily could not be maintained with regularity and enthusiasm, leading him to feel disheartened.