Can you detail Hemadpant's internal monologue and reasoning for almost canceling his trip to Shirdi?

Hemadpant's decision to almost cancel his Shirdi trip stemmed from a profound internal conflict triggered by his friend's son's death. As Chapter 2 explains, this event caused his interest in seeing Sai to "go slack." His logic-driven mind went into overdrive, questioning the efficacy of spiritual masters. He thought, "Why go to Shirdi? What is the condition of my friend? Is this the benefit of a Guru's company? What can Gurus do against Karma?" He reasoned that if everything is pre-written on one's forehead and destiny is irresistible, then there is no point in seeking a Guru. He concluded it was better to stay put and experience whatever joy or difficulty came by chance. This entire internal debate, beautifully captured in Chapter 2, shows a man grappling with the limits of human effort against the perceived immutability of fate.