Can you describe the specific challenges Balasaheb Deo faced when he attempted to read the Dnyaneshwari?

According to the account in Chapter 41, Balasaheb Deo's challenges with the Dnyaneshwari were persistent and internal. Despite a strong desire, some obstacle would always come up, preventing his daily reading from becoming a regular rule. A key difficulty was the emergence of doubts in his heart whenever he started reading, which caused the reading to remain superficial and hindered the development of any true affection for the text. This spiritual block was so significant that even during a three-month leave from work, his desire to read the Dnyaneshwari was not fulfilled, and he couldn't even manage to read five verses with regularity.