Can you describe the narrator's internal conflict regarding worldly employment versus service to the Guru?

The narrator experiences a significant internal conflict after hearing Baba's words. In Chapter 3, he makes a determination to abandon the "service of men" and dedicate himself to the "service of the Guru." However, he simultaneously feels a "restlessness in the mind" due to the practical need for a job to manage his household. He describes Baba's teaching as making one "drink medicine" with the "hope of this jaggery," suggesting a difficult path with a promised reward. He admits to taking a job out of "greed for money," but it proves to be impermanent. Ultimately, he concludes that Baba guided him through this experience to make him "sit in one place to enjoy indestructible happiness," resolving the conflict by showing him the transient nature of worldly pursuits compared to the lasting joy of spiritual dedication.