Can you describe the emotional turmoil Sapatnekar experienced because of Sai Baba's initial treatment of him?

Sapatnekar was deeply distressed by Sai Baba's repeated rebukes of "Chal Hat" every time he went for Darshan. As described in Shri Sai Satcharitra Chapter 48, he felt singled out and wondered why Baba was so angry only with him, especially when others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy" in Baba's presence. He became deeply introspective, questioning if his past Karma had peaked or if he had violated Dharma. He even suspected his own initial argumentative and doubtful nature towards Baba was the cause. This inner conflict made him sleepless and unable to enjoy food or water, leading him to make a firm resolution to stay until he received Baba's grace, which he eventually did.