Can you analyze the narrator's internal conflict regarding destiny and the role of a Guru before his journey?

The narrator's internal conflict is a central theme, pitting his logic-driven mind against the concept of destiny and spiritual guidance. After his friend's tragedy, he concluded that destiny is absolute and a Guru's intervention is futile. As expressed in Chapter 2, he thought, "What is the use of going to a Guru if nothing works against what is to happen?" and decided to let chance dictate his life. However, a contradictory thought emerges where he admits, "Nothing works against destiny; it dragged me to Shirdi." This reveals his struggle: on one hand, he dismisses the need for a Guru due to destiny's power, but on the other, he acknowledges that this very destiny, through a past-life connection and the insistence of friends, was compelling him to undertake the journey he logically opposed.